Leaves on this Family Tree

Monday, April 19, 2010


Does  anyone know how to interpret dreams?

I had the kind of dream the other night that just stays with me and stays with me for days. The dream itself was exhausting . . . both after it happened and for the days after when it was so real.

We had been close, two friends from school who had flirted but nothing came of it. Got together a few times after I had been working a few years and he was out of college and working now.  Then, in the middle of the night, well, it was his workday since he worked 3rd shift, he calls and tells me he is getting married. Did he want me to ask why, say don't do it . . why call me and tell me then?

He married. In a few years I went back home to work and I figured I would probably see him again when he retired . . . but alas, cancer hit him with a death notice, but a car accident beat it to the punch. And that, as they say, is all she wrote.

When i was still at home, I would visit his grave. The 1st couple of years it was rough . . . but it did get better. I often wondered if he saw me there. . heard me talking to  him, wondered what the hell had happened to make me visit so often and why the hell was I crying for him?

This past winter he has visited twice. the 1st time it was interesting, but this last time it down right intriguing. Why would he come back to visit twice in a couple of months? Both time, in the dreams, I knew he was dead . . . and I knew he would only be here for a short time.

Normally in my dreams, I can connect what I dream to something I have seen on TV, or read in the newspaper. This last one however, have come in and hit me from left field. Tonight I know this more than ever . . why would I write about it if it wasn't bothering me?

So now, at least I have a benchmark and I will be able to see just when it happens again . . . perhaps in a month, perhaps in 5 or 10 years. Whichever it is, it will be, again, a welcome visit from an old friend . . . I just wish he could stay around longer and we could talk. That, I would find very peaceful and relaxing.

Making Wishes That Never Come True


  1. I've been reading this book: http://books.google.com/books?id=GO2gAAw6D1kC&printsec=frontcover&dq=staying+connected+bamford&source=bl&ots=J8dy9YMy8o&sig=9j23f-VqwXdkvCA2ls4A2RNsxKU&hl=en&ei=HyzNS6-EK4OClAfOjvXMDQ&sa=X&oi=book_result&ct=result&resnum=1&ved=0CAgQ6AEwAA#v=onepage&q&f=false

    The dead are really "living." They just don't have a physical body. They still have a desire to "participate" (for lack of a better word) in what's happening on earth - in a very spiritual way, though. To do that, they have to "connect" with people who are "open" to them.

    It would be interesting to know how old the man was when he died & how long he has been living on the other side of the threshold. After crossing, people examine their past life in a certain way. He may have "finished" that process and had a desire to connect with you on a spiritual level based on his experience, esp. if his actions caused you to be hurt.

    Okay, I hope that doesn't sound too strange.


  2. Dreams are weird, are they not? I dream about my ex (still alive) all the time and we have been divorced for almost 11 years now. I have only dreamed about J twice and he's only been gone a year and a half. My mother passed away in 1972 and I have only dreamed about her a few times, that I can remember. I do remember a lot of my dreams, not all, and I do dream in color. But I am left with the same feeling sometimes, and they bother me too. I haven't benchmarked mine but sometimes wish I had. It's funny how the subconscious works isn't it?

  3. Try this link, Paula. That is actually where I ordered the book from. http://www.steinerbooks.org/detail.html?id=9780880104623


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